Saturday, May 1, 2010, 12:25 AM
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the flu had hit a few times, the throat infection hit a few times in a month, and it's back again. i really dont understand why it is like that... i took medicine, i took antibiotics, i took vit c, i took care not to let it relapse, but it still comes back nonetheless.. WHY???
anyway, it's been a few hectic weeks in school, alot of markings, alot of things to chiong, and alot of syllabus to catch up for. i cant afford to be sick, really!!! children have been really sweet these days.. i have terence who constantly checks if i am ok, ibuys drinks for me, i have ruisheng who's turned over a new leaf, buys me chrysanthemum teas, i really appreciate their thoughts. i have a bunch of lovely p6s pupils who chits chats and destress for me... and i have a good friend/pupil xiwen who's constantly being nice to me.. thanks kids, thanks people, for being such sweet people who makes me feel really motivated nand blessed. above all, i have great friends/colleagues/comrades who fight this everyday battle with me. thanks girls, you know who u all are...
and so the dismissal bell rings everyday and the national anthem plays everyday... day after day, i just wish and hope i can EVER touch and change some lives...
personal life's been pretty much the same, boring and nothing much to update on. it's exams week soon, it's marking and chionging week! JIAYOU GIRLS! JIAYOU my pupils! (:
Saturday, March 27, 2010, 2:19 PM
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aloha, for a long time since the last post. i've decided not to let my blog be reallllly literally peaceful :) some rants. it's been really busy and i realised i haven updated anything since the start of the year! my bad, my apologies my dearests all.
alright, to cut things short. i got assigned to teach p3, p4 and p5s. form teacher of a p4 class, p4-5 which initally gave me the idea that they can't really care much about what i say or don't. gradually, they became a class of angelic souls who really care and from their faces, you know they do care. they are talkative, rowdy, can be too loud at times but deep intheir hearts, i know i've made a little difference. and i'm glad about it (: i'll strive hard, what comes to me as a challenge will be undertaken and overcomed!! 4-5 will become different! and i want to make that difference!
after a term with them, i can't help but still say i would miss my 2-3 pupils who are now scattered among the p3s. they are warm, and they never fail to approach me whenever they see me. what makes my heart melt is when owen would still let me handhold him with all his work and he's that significant difference i've seen since last year. what makes me more than happy is when benedict greets me warmly and when yixuan still tells me how he's doing and when randy smiles with his blur look and the girls rushing to me like a flock of beautiful grown butterflies. they are lovable.
what makes this year worth looking forward each day are my p6 classes. i can't ue a single word or a single sentence to define what makes them the reason i'm looking fwd to each day. they are neither adults nor are they young children like my p3s or 4s, but they touch your heart and soul in a different way. they care from within, and each time they cheer when i enter the class, it just feels like whatever hardwork it may be, it's worth it. they come to you when you're down, and they make you smile when you feel like it's a dread. 6-6, 6-7 are totally lovable kids, who can be naughty, rebellious, at times, but really, they are the ones who make teaching worthwhile. according to them, i'm a different teacher, i do wonder how am i different. (:
wushu cca, tiring hectic, but well, i love the kids there, from the bottom of my heart. the older kids warm my days. lately, we've been all putting in our effort for the competition, they've put in their heart and sweat.. there are so many of them, i see their attitude and i want them to just put in their best and dont get too stress, but looking at it, really, how not to be stress when there's so many audiences and when it's a national competition. they may not see this post, but i salute their efforts and above all, their determination and strength. especially to a few of you (they know who they are), i've seen so much in you and watcheed u all trained hard, whatever the results may be, it really doesnt matter. although they may not know this, but whatever results it may be, they get their treat from me (:
life apart from school has been really dull after faezah left for melbourne.. i lost some true craziness, i need some recharge. her calls and emails and msn chats makes me recover well and then i'd use up those energy too fast! hahaha... brain, if u're reading, OMG, U'RE SOOOOO MISSED!!! meetings with the usuals have been heavily reduced but we're still having enough dosage of each other (: MISSSSS TO ALL I HAVEN SEEN OR MEET DUE TO MY TIGHT SCHEDULE!!
heart-to-heart or back-to-back, you made a difference to my life (: love you..
Sunday, December 6, 2009, 10:26 PM
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i didn't know it hurts this much. i didnt know it has to be so damn tough.
what's so wrong about loving someone?
what's so wrong about loving someone all too much?
what's so damn wrong about me???
i'm really tired.. maybe, i should just let everything go...
Wednesday, November 25, 2009, 3:43 PM
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a little confession: i'm tired of waiting....
Tuesday, November 24, 2009, 1:01 PM
- family? what's that?
can anyone define he word family for me?
there's nothing such as family. family are not the ones who would be there for you, for goodness sake. family comes to you when they need to, family comes to you only in times of need.. thats when the saying goes, 'family is there for you in times of need.' if they don't need you, do you think they'd bother finding you??? c'mon, hell no!
friends ironically are the ones who can be there, anytime.
what's the sad thing? the sad thing is, u try too hard to get your family like you, u try all too hard just to get them to look and talk to u..... joyce, try too hard and u're the one who get hurt. stop being a clown and stop being a fool! they're not going to care about you.
if i have a choice, i really would prefer to be someone heartless.
cold.heartless.stone.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009, 12:25 AM
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dear diary...
that's when you know where u stand, u know where it leads to, and wish to drop everything and walk away.. leave the pain, drop the sorrows... :(
ive deicded to reallllly just move on.... alot of times, we're moving, but we're not moving on... y??????????????
sometimes love just aint enough.. it's true...
Friday, October 23, 2009, 10:37 AM
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dear dairy,
seriously, who cares about what you think and feel at this very moment? and seriously, why should humans be created such a way that we must feel so much for something not significant at all? and why am i so programmed to feel so much for even the most negligible details of life? back off, and just get off my nerves!
