Tuesday, April 28, 2009, 11:12 AM
- replay
those few songs that keep playing in your mind.
those few scenes that keep flashing in your mind.
hmmm.
Saturday, April 25, 2009, 1:35 PM
- there's always a time to say goodbye
i met a mentor, i met a friend, into the first turning point when i joined this career. yesterday was double loss for me, though i'm still happy for both of them that they are now moving on with things that they truly wanted. we'd still see each other of cos, but then, come monday i'd be somewhat lonely, yet again. back to square one. haha
just want to thank ms.wong, for all her guidance and everything she ever gave. her padagogies will stay with me as an inspiration (:
it's weekends, but how come i've stopped looking forward to weekends? maybe i'm just too restless. i need to find activities to do, seriously.
Tuesday, April 21, 2009, 9:56 PM
- stay the same - joey mcintyre
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.
I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.
Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.
Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.
-yea,stay the same.
- monumental task
yesterday, it was my first successful attempt to pretend to be really angry. i was fuming pretentiously. and i made the children write a reflection each to repent. ms wong said i made them accomplished a monumental task. indeed. i was reading the reflections, and i was smiling at all of the writings. heart-warming. lovable children.
checked my email and received a reply from the y-camp challenge. yes, i'm going to volunteer for the camp where we would be paired with either physically challenged or intellectually challenged beneficiaries at the 4 days 3 nights camp. guess that shall make life slightly fulfilling for me (: i'm looking forward to it. anyone wanna join me? hee..
tickets to sarawak to jin nan's hometown had been booked, all thanks to lao da and his efficiency. everything settled. like he said, we are now waiting for the day to come. i'm also looking forward to it. welcome june and my happiness. we will be travelling on first weekend of june, and y-camp challenge is on 2nd week of june.
now, what shall i plan for 3rd week of june before i resume duties on the last week? hmm, i'm contemplating to do many many many things. of well, i've only got ONE more week. i should meet many many missed friends (:
apart from looking forward to june. i'm first looking forward to 1st of may. yes, it's labour's day. yes, it's jin nan's birthday. and OH YES, we are going to malacca! we will be setting off on 1st may's morning and be back on 3rd may. yummy. it's gonna be a good eating-shopping-trip. with all the right company. mum+sis+lao da +nan+sweeqin. LOVELYYY.
tomorrow is mid week. tomorrow will be a long hectic day, but it will be over soon. real soon. i'm looking forward to weekends. it's gonna be a fun weekend altogether. film fest. nights out. lovely.
oh wells, if u realised, i'm always looking forward.
i'm most looking forward to december actually. and they know why. (:(:
Sunday, April 19, 2009, 10:28 PM
- good night sunday, good morning monday.
tomorrow is monday.
everything is summarised in this one short line.
yes it is.
good night.
- in the midst of the search
hello all, yes i am back.
away from stress and fatigue and everything else, i'm taking some time off to blog about the past few weeks.
actually, days flew passed without my realization.
period after period, bell after bell and my day would end with a school song followed by the national anhem.
and as the national anthem fades off on it's last notes, my day fades away too. leaving the childrens' 'goodbye' buzzing in my ears, and the bus ride would be short but therapeutic.
past weekends have been therapeutic too. more of self-care and some alone me-time. reflections u call it i supposed? but usually i don do much of that. i just space out and let the brain takes what it needs to rest. and so, come monday the brain would still have juices to spare for my little children. it's a blessing to be able to touch lives and nurture souls. i love all the nitty gritty things the children gave. they are lovable.
sometimes, i'm so detach from so many things else, i'm scared of detaching from the previous world i had. sometimes i think back and wondered why. have i grown out of all my old clothes? but i still want them all. have i got sick of reading the repetitive chapters of a certain book? but i still want to keep the book. and why the sudden use of metaphors? faezah said i'm having fun in the mature way. probably.
lately i've watched shinjuku incident. it reflects life's dark side. the ugly sides of people when they want wealth, fame and status. it made people feel the gross sides of life. but it's so true. well plotted to show the facets of life that comes our way without we realising it. it's scary. i liked the story and i watched twice!
too fast too furious aint too bad also.
now, i think i really miss faezah and yingtao. maybe with them around there should be some craziness portrayed. BUT... right now. i'm too tamed. hahaha (:
