Sunday, April 19, 2009, 11:12 AM
- in the midst of the search
hello all, yes i am back.
away from stress and fatigue and everything else, i'm taking some time off to blog about the past few weeks.
actually, days flew passed without my realization.
period after period, bell after bell and my day would end with a school song followed by the national anhem.
and as the national anthem fades off on it's last notes, my day fades away too. leaving the childrens' 'goodbye' buzzing in my ears, and the bus ride would be short but therapeutic.
past weekends have been therapeutic too. more of self-care and some alone me-time. reflections u call it i supposed? but usually i don do much of that. i just space out and let the brain takes what it needs to rest. and so, come monday the brain would still have juices to spare for my little children. it's a blessing to be able to touch lives and nurture souls. i love all the nitty gritty things the children gave. they are lovable.
sometimes, i'm so detach from so many things else, i'm scared of detaching from the previous world i had. sometimes i think back and wondered why. have i grown out of all my old clothes? but i still want them all. have i got sick of reading the repetitive chapters of a certain book? but i still want to keep the book. and why the sudden use of metaphors? faezah said i'm having fun in the mature way. probably.
lately i've watched shinjuku incident. it reflects life's dark side. the ugly sides of people when they want wealth, fame and status. it made people feel the gross sides of life. but it's so true. well plotted to show the facets of life that comes our way without we realising it. it's scary. i liked the story and i watched twice!
too fast too furious aint too bad also.
now, i think i really miss faezah and yingtao. maybe with them around there should be some craziness portrayed. BUT... right now. i'm too tamed. hahaha (:
